A special day

Another year passes by,

Another candle added to your cake,

A year wiser.

Past were the hardships you've been through,

Present is the challenge upon you,

Future is another wish for you.

Another year may past again,

To lead you to this special day,

Fret not since you are a prince,

Surrounded by loving souls and kind hearts,

Elevating their presence on your special day,

A gentle reminder of how much you've been loved.

The Creater I must thank,

For inventing such exceptional man,

Who is a warrior in his own battle,

A prince in his own solace,

An angel for each of his relations and loved ones,

And he brought you into my life.

There are no words in the world to describe the meaning of JOY,

The meaning of BLISS,

The meaning of CONTENTMENT,

And most of all, there is no words to describe the meaning of HAPPINESS,

But YOU.

Happy birthday to you.

May you have abundance of blessings until the end of time.

-Lisa, 08052013-

Dark Past

God has a funny way to make things work. Funnily enough I have just found out that one of my good friends is friends with his ex adversary, namely my used to be beloved. I wonder to myself why it has not happen earlier. That would make my life easier then.

I too wonder about my used to be beloved. Is he happier now? Truth be told, he was not really my beloved, more like my unrequited love, but yes ,it was love then. I waited long enough for him, 5 years to be exact. Too long that I decided to discard him from my life altogether. The pain was too much to keep him around. I heard that he is single now, and I thought to myself what could have happen, if things were still the same. 

When the thought crosses my mind, I feel like I was cheating towards my better half. I should not wonder. My life is a garden of roses now. Still I wonder about others, if they ever have the same thought in their life before. Nevertheless, if the table were to be turned, I wish my future husband will not wonder at all, or rekindle any feelings.  Hence, I promise myself to pack away my old memories and decide to make new memories, with the one and only, love of my life, my soul mate.

 Pandora's Box

Old memories make its way back to my life today,

I peek at it a little bit, out of curiosity,

A pandora’s box, about to be opened.

Our recollections suddenly resurface,

Of Bangkok, Phuket and Pattaya,

A pleasing aide memoire of our life together,

And it brought me back to reality.

Thus I close the box again,

Locking it tightly and throw it out in the ocean,

For it should sink deep down,

And never to be found again.

And from now on I am sailing away,

As the ocean calms down,

You and I head out,

To a world full with wonder,

Loved and safe, with you next to me,

Continuing our voyage together,

Till the end of time.

P/S.  I hope that my better half will never find this entry, however should he found ever it , I hope he knows deep down in his heart that my past is finally over. I just need to get this out of my chest, and it stops here. I can move on peacefully now, and I look forward to the future where there is only my better half and me.

Clueless mademoiselle remains clueless

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How time flies by. I stumble upon my own little blog ( little being that hardly anyone ever read it ). I miss writing, especially poems. For the past 2 years, well almost 3 years, I sell my soul to the corporate world. Thus, when your soul is trapped, you have nowhere to go, not even to your own little sanctuary (which is my blog). Still I try to update my Tumblr whenever I can, dedicated mostly to my better half. That's another type of blog, for the hopeless romantics.

I think I lost my creativity. I hope not for long. While I am away from writing, I still do some reading on blogs. I love reading blogs/poems just as much as writing it. This is one of my favourite poems which I like to share. 

Desiderata of Happiness.

Go placidly amidst the noise and haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence. As far as possible without surrender be on good terms with all persons. Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to others, even the dull and the ignorant; they too have their story.

Avoid loud and aggressive persons, they are vexatious to the spirit. If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain and bitter; for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans. Keep interested in your own career, however humble; it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.

Exercise caution in your business affairs; for the world is full of trickery. But let this not blind you to what virtue there is; many persons strive for high ideals; and everywhere life is full of heroism.
Be yourself. Especially, do not feign affection. Neither be cynical about love; for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment it is as perennial as the grass.

Take kindly the counsel of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth. Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune. But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings. Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.

Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here.

And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should. Therefore be at peace with God, whatever you conceive Him to be, and whatever your labors and aspirations, in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul. With all its shams, drudgery, and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world. Be cheerful.

Strive to be happy.

By Maxx Ehrman

Take me back to " Summer of 69"

I remember the dance,
The dance,
That craves a smile on my face,
The dance,
That brought up sounds of laughter,
The dance,
That lit up the whole room,
My heart was full of contentment,
Over flown with gratefulness,
As it dance to this song,
It is the dance of love and happiness,
For I and my heart,
Dance with you and your soul,
Encircle with love, and more love,
So I say,
Take me back,
Take me back to the “Summer of 69”,
Where I stay and linger in your arms,
And there were only two of us.

- clueless mademoiselle remains clueless -

Mezzanine

I had a quiet conversation today,
On the second level, overlooking the crowd,
With songs of love as a lullaby,
And black coffee as my companion,
There was no more angry argument,
There was no more roar of laughter,
Just as monotone, plain quiet one
For I actually had my conversation
With an empty chair instead
Whereby last time it was filled by you

-clueless mademoiselle remains clueless-

K for Kindness

This is for all the beautiful strangers I have came across in my life. Thank you for your kindness.

In an afternoon rendezvous,

With my best friend,

Topics of unfortunate events was the main conversation,

But as we’re about to pay,

The waiter smiled and say“Your bill has been paid by someone”,

Thus we went home with a smile carved on our faces.

I walked through among fishes of people,

Cranky and cantankerous,

Nevertheless, a beautiful lady passes me by,

And she said “I like your outfit”,

I feel a sudden of calmness,

Exuberance fills my heart.

After a stressful day at workI walked to my car,

Pitter-patter of rain, hit my head,

Unexpectedly,

A car passes me,

And the driver utter“You look good”.

I felt the rain stop all of the sudden,

Dear kind strangers,

I may never know who you are,

But without a doubtYou lift up my day,

And make me believe,

The world is still full of kindness,

Through your random act of kindness,

It may be a zilch to you,

As for me it was something immense,

No act of kindness, is ever too small.

clueless mademoiselle remains clueless at 12.21pm

Dear Mr Soulmate

Hey Mr Soulmate,

I hope you will find me soon. I know it’s not an easy path but hopefully one day you’ll find your way. Perhaps these might help you.

I live for the little things in life. A good scent, sunrise and sunset, my family and friends, children’s laughter, sounds of the waves, breakfast by the pool………..and other little things.

I like traveling. I hope you do too. I don’t travel much but I am fortunate enough to see some wonderful places,of different cultures and lifestyle. Sicily Island is the land of smile and laughter, whereby its scenery is picturesque. As for Laos, their laid back lifestyle charms me and of course their famous Mekong River.Those are my favourite so far. I’d like to visit Bucharest, Zagreb, Santorini Island and a lot more. Perhaps you could accompany me?

My ideal weekend would be lazing around at home, while we read our books. I hope you like to read, since I find a knowledgeable man attractive. I also love walking a along sandy beach or at the park :).

When you get tired from work, I’ll make a tea for you, and give you a massage. I’ll prepare your favourite meal too. I’ll make you a good breakfast every morning and I’ll put on a tie for you, along with a peck on your cheek as you rush through the door.

I hope you have a big heart, full of kindness. But at times you might want to be strict with me. Don’t let me get my way all the time.

Though I might seem like a girly type, I am quite independent.

I would dress nicely everyday, not to impress others, but to impress you. I want you to feel proud being with me because I know I would feel the same.

I love cuddling :).

Sometimes I may gain some weight, but please bear in mind, I’ll try hard to shed it.

Please be patient with me, because I could be so blur at times, too girly and I am such a chatterbox.

I am a coffee addict and a chocoholic ;).Archies and ZITS comics makes my day.

I may not be as clingy or possessive as you would expect but that does not mean that I don’t love you,it means I trust you. I hope you could do the same :)

BUT

Despite all that, I just hope that when you finally find your way,I hope that you will just accept me as who I am, help me grow along the way, and bring the best out of me.

MOST IMPORTANTLY,

Just love me with all your heart.
cluelessmademoiselle remains clueless 

p/s This was written last two years, I am happy to share that I have found my soulmate :)